I sit here with my new laptop before me, and a beautiful friendship is forming.
A digital notebook with endless pages = every writer's dream. A notebook that can save endless amounts of text and videos. A book that has every subject in the world just waiting to be searched and learnt. And it is all mine. No logging in to find a download of an unheard of thrash band in progress. No hiding my files so obscurely that even I can't find them. A PC that is all me, all the time, and available anytime I wish. Bliss!
My laptop feels like a place to escape to. It is as relaxing as a meditation room, and as educational as a class room. It is as personal as a diary, and as functional, as well any PC.
I feel so free when I am in front of this screen, and I feel love. Not so much love for my 'new friend', but love for life in general, love for the opportunities before me, and appreciation for where I currently find myself in life.
With the new year approaching fast (about 5 hours to go at this point), I am consumed with desire to make this my best year yet. (The need is possibly exacerbated by the fact 2009 holds one of those birthdays with a '0' on the end of my age....) I am ready, I am more than ready to confront my demons. The horrible demons that hold me back - the demons that create irrational fears and excuses. I am done with all of that, I am ready for a better life, and a better me.
I am creating this blog with the view to write regularly (ideally everyday - but I am not going to set myself up to fail with a promise I can't guarantee keeping, (( I am also deciding to not be too hard on myself anymore)).
I've found writing is the best tool I have to understand and to learn. To learn about myself, my decisions, my attitudes and my reasons for doing things. It also lets me try to find rationale in the actions of those around me. Both the actions I appreciate and the actions that drive me to deep frustration.
I am lucky that my hard work has got me to a place where a have a reasonably clear picture of what I want and where I am going. I am now in the action phase. I need to take action, regularly and repeatedly to create the successes I am so deeply needing.
Well as the new year is approaching faster than I can type and get ready to go out - I will tie this first blog up here.
Good luck with your New Years Resolutions. I know I will be working hard on mine, although this year I will be working harder than ever to keep them too (seriously!).
Have a safe and wonderful New Year - make it your best yet!
A digital notebook with endless pages = every writer's dream. A notebook that can save endless amounts of text and videos. A book that has every subject in the world just waiting to be searched and learnt. And it is all mine. No logging in to find a download of an unheard of thrash band in progress. No hiding my files so obscurely that even I can't find them. A PC that is all me, all the time, and available anytime I wish. Bliss!
My laptop feels like a place to escape to. It is as relaxing as a meditation room, and as educational as a class room. It is as personal as a diary, and as functional, as well any PC.
I feel so free when I am in front of this screen, and I feel love. Not so much love for my 'new friend', but love for life in general, love for the opportunities before me, and appreciation for where I currently find myself in life.
With the new year approaching fast (about 5 hours to go at this point), I am consumed with desire to make this my best year yet. (The need is possibly exacerbated by the fact 2009 holds one of those birthdays with a '0' on the end of my age....) I am ready, I am more than ready to confront my demons. The horrible demons that hold me back - the demons that create irrational fears and excuses. I am done with all of that, I am ready for a better life, and a better me.
I am creating this blog with the view to write regularly (ideally everyday - but I am not going to set myself up to fail with a promise I can't guarantee keeping, (( I am also deciding to not be too hard on myself anymore)).
I've found writing is the best tool I have to understand and to learn. To learn about myself, my decisions, my attitudes and my reasons for doing things. It also lets me try to find rationale in the actions of those around me. Both the actions I appreciate and the actions that drive me to deep frustration.
I am lucky that my hard work has got me to a place where a have a reasonably clear picture of what I want and where I am going. I am now in the action phase. I need to take action, regularly and repeatedly to create the successes I am so deeply needing.
Well as the new year is approaching faster than I can type and get ready to go out - I will tie this first blog up here.
Good luck with your New Years Resolutions. I know I will be working hard on mine, although this year I will be working harder than ever to keep them too (seriously!).
Have a safe and wonderful New Year - make it your best yet!
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